Story Tellers | 09 Jun 2017

My very first TED talk was just about fine... | By a 17 year old intern


We love telling stories, and we are pleased to introduce to you Ms. Sakinah Master, one of the youngest interns at Red Polka. This curly haired beauty, always has a shy smile on and a positive demeanour, today we are amazed by this personal story she shared with us. It is all about her life learning, just at 17, we learnt a few things from her through this one. This adds a beautiful curve to our edition this week- 'No Kidding!' the mother-child edition. We're sure many parents will find a connect too, read on...

Sakinah Master's words-

I first heard about the TED club when I was in grade 10, just 15 years old in the midst of my exams. I decided to join it in school as a couple of my peers were heading it. I was excited as well as nervous because this was the first time I was doing something as big as give a TED talk. After watching many talks on various subjects I had got a hang of the style and the tag line ‘an idea worth spreading’ really stuck with me.

After days of thinking and sleepless nights over my topic I decided on something very different. Unheard women and their stories. I was apprehensive as all my peers had a personal topic but I had decided to tell someone else’s story. Preparing for my TED talk wasn’t just preparing for a competition, it was a learning process and an eye opener to the world of different people. It was surprising to find so many talented wonderful women that have accomplished great things and no one’s even heard about. It made me realize Malala is not alone.


The day of my talk arrived and I was nervous, couldn’t begin to describe how I felt.Nonetheless I was ready to do my best. I had always loved being on stage but this time was different. The clock was ticking and soon I was up. My voice was shaking and my knees were trembling and I felt like I was rushing through my little time on stage.  When my talk was over and I gave it all I had I didn’t feel like all those times I felt when I got down from those wooden steps. I didn’t feel glamorous and I didn’t feel a sense of achievement.

I finished feeling unsatisfied. My talk was just about okay and I didn’t feel that feeling of accomplishment, that feeling of doing amazingly well. I immediately wanted to redo the last fifteen minutes because I knew I could perform so much better. This wasn’t who I was. I was given a few moments in the spotlight and I didn’t use it to the fullest. Those last ten minutes kept replaying in my head and I picked out every flaw, every word I could have said differently, every action I did wrong and my stomach clenched and my throat was tight.

I sat in the audience watching my peers give their talks, showcasing their weeks of hard work and I felt jealous. Why? Why didn’t I feel my hard work and preparation being rewarded? Why was I left with a hunger of wanting to do my talk again? What had I really done wrong or was I just overthinking?

One of the parents in the audience even had tears because of my friend’s talk. Why wasn’t the audience moved by mine? Of course I was proud of the talent my peers were portraying but I had it too, except no one knew.



We had a celebration after the event was over except I didn’t feel like celebrating.

After much introspection I realized that my talk wasn’t personal enough or probably the delivery wasn’t apt. Today, after almost a year later, at the age of 17, I still wish I could have redone those precious ten minutes but I learnt that sometimes it’s okay to fail and sometimes it’s okay to mess up because those are the times you learn the most from. I learnt that lesson the hard way. The jealousy faded and so did the regret.  I learnt how to reflect and I learn how to let go.



 

It is your first day at office as an intern and you definitely want to set up a mark and make a statement with your talent of course, but with your style as well! So walk towards a new phase of life—‘the professional world’. Prepare to let your presence felt, with our seven tips! Click here


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